A Dot in the Universe...
Saturday, March 27, 2010
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
i could've sworn that the touch on the hips meant something. i joked you about something you'd promised to tell. and while we waited for the doors to open, you pinched me on my waist and it never left there. i decided not to leave and spend the rest of the night with you and your housemates despite the consequences.
i could've sworn that my night went perfect. that night our lips were on a silent rendezvous. our hands locked like the key was thrown away for good. and our bodies felt each others warmth. simple bliss on a silent night.
i could've sworn that i loved the surprise kiss you made. as we made our way to a bread shop that morning we held hands despite the people staring at us. and while i waited on at the door of that shop, you surprised me with a kiss on the cheek in public, in front of other buyers and the cashiers. i should feel uncomfy that you did it - but i didn't.
i could've sworn that i will never regret the whole day i spent with you. you had your mood swings and "pagatataray", but i thought it was rather sweet. your surprised kisses and hugs just swept me off my feet. it was then i decided i was going for this...
i could've sworn that you are the only exception. i know and i am expecting that i'd be hurt in the end, but still i refuse to stop, cause the feeling brought about this is just so overwhelming. i'd soon run out of reasons to be happy - once this is over - but that's ok. i have been living my life that way for long now, so it's not something i'd feel surprised about.
i could've sworn that i am loving you now...
Monday, March 15, 2010
alam ko naman na mali.
pero hindi ko napigilan.
sinubukan ko pigilan.
nagustuhan ko rin.
pero kahit na gusto ko.
ok lang na masaktan.
hindi ko lang matanggap.
ang kalokahang ipinipilit kong ipasok.
sa puso at sa isip ko.
ilang beses din.
ilang pagkakataon din.
may nasirang pagkakaibibigan.
may masisira pang pagkakaibigan.
hindi lang yung pagkakaibigan namin.
pati yung atin.
handa naman ako.
kung paano ka nilaglag ng minahal mo.
ganun din ako.
alam ko naman na pwedeng dumating dito.
ok na to.
matatanggap ko rin to.
mauuntog din ako.
matututo din ako.
patuloy na uusad.
patuloy na lalakad.
patuloy na makikipagsapalaran.
ayoko lang na dumating ang oras.
wala na ako maramdaman.
na kahit ano.
sa kahit kanino.
at kahit saan.
ang mahalaga sakin.
kahit minsan sa aking buhay.
Monday, March 8, 2010
Friday, March 5, 2010
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
I read this quote in one of the blogs I stumbled on..
you know something's wrong,
when after a long hiatus,
you start blogging again.
I wanted to believe there's really something wrong with me that made me go back to blogging... But then I tend to think I've never changed. I've only grown a year older.
Yes. You read it right. I'm a year older. Hopefully, as the years pass along my veins, arteries and nerves, I become stronger and better. That even if I have realized that love is something I shouldn't believe in, I'll always have reason to live and pursue whatever I want to happen in my life.
As I was making the picture above to thank all the people who either have been notified by their Facebook Calendars, by groups messages received from others and those who really remembered my birthday, I saw this ad from coke - simple words - yet really inspiring and convincing.. read on...
Ibuhos ang saya hanggang lahat ay mahawa
Buksan ang sarili. Wag pigilin ang tawta
Hatakin ang barkada. Game kahit saan mapunta
Bagong trip, ba't di subukan? Sama ka, 'wag magpaiwan
Kilalanin ang kapitbahay. Batiin ang kaaway
Pag nadapa, bangon lang. Pag may tumawa, bow na lang.
Kung manalo, eh di masaya. Kung matalo, may next time pa.
Kung mahal mo, pakita mo. Walang mawawala sayo.
Pangarap, wag bitawan. Malay mo. Subok lang.
Sama-sama. Salu-salo. Buhay Coke, Buksan mo!
Simple statements I will live by as another book opens for me to write on.
Life's a game. Play on. Play it hard. Play it well!
-seaN j @ 26